" God is not a man that He shall lie, neither is He son of man that he shall repent"
I heard this scripture repeated so much in my life but it never really made since to me until I began to see and understand the faithfulness of God. See often times in life we have been conditioned to think that no one can be trusted and no can be counted on and expected to keep their word. So it makes it hard for us to completely trust and believe God for what he spoke over our lives because we hold God to the same law we hold man based upon our past events.
We are so used to people lying and using us that when God speaks it's difficult for us to operate out of faith and believe what He said because our conditioned flesh tells us we need to protect ourselves and just do what we have to do to make sure we are ok.
I have learned that the hardest requirement on the christian journey is trusting God and believing in His faithfulness. For so long I struggled with many addiction such as homosexuality, masturbation and etc. And I remember after I allowed God to save my soul he spoke to me through a vision. I had a dream that I was sitting on Oprah's stage being interviewed by her about the best selling book I had written, and in the dream the book she held in her had was called "Tears of Deliverance", in the audience I saw my wife and I heard her speak about our ministry and our children. At this moment in my life I was still sexually involved with guys and my self esteem was so low that I couldn't imagine that this vision was factual or it would come to pass. I mean I was no where near of becoming the man I saw in the vision.
Then God showed me the scripture from the prophet Habakkuk that read, "write the vision and make it plain, so that he that read it may run with it, tho it tarries, in due season it shall come to pass". It was so hard for me to trust God and believe Him when He said He would deliver me and set me free. It was hard receiving a dream that showed me out of the bondage of homosexuality. It was hard believing that one day I would be free from the chains of abuse and child hood molestation.
For the first time in my life I was challenged with believing God for what He said versus believing what I saw...as time went on God began to show himself faithful in my life by answering small prayers and then answering prayers that required a little more faith than others. I then began to believe God for his faithfulness. I began to expect God to move on my behave, I started operating out of a level of faith that literally changed my atmosphere. In the midst of this I was still struggling with homosexuality and that dream that God had given me still was stuck on replay in my mind and my spirit.
Right when I was just about to give up on being delivered from homosexuality, I remember having a sexual encounter with my cousin and the conviction and shame that I felt afterwards sent me into this state of weaping and sobbing. I remembered getting out some paper and I wrote, " Oh that my head maybe a spring of water and my eyes a fountain of tears, I will weep, mourn, cry and lament for our sins we must repent" This scripture from the book of Jeremiah continually rose up in my spirit and as I began to write my feelings and emotions down on paper, when I was done I had written the first part of the first chapter in my book.
At that moment I remembered the vision, I remembered the promise and then I gained a revelation on why God gave me the vision when I was sooooo far away from the manifestation and it was so I could have the strength to keep fighting in the midst of the storms, in the midst of the mistakes. He gave me the knowledge I needed to keep from perishing in the battle. That was back in 2003 and now it is pre 2012 and my book entitled, "Tears of Deliverance" have been released. I have been delivered and set free from the bondage of sexual sin, homosexuality, masturbation and etc. I have been healed from the hurts of childhood molestation and it has all been because of the faithfulness of God.
God has done just what He said He would do. He told me I would tell my story to the nations to bring about a change in people lives who have struggled and is struggling just as I was. God promised to heal, deliver and set me free and because of His faithfulness it is done.
It has nothing to do with who we are or what we do but it has everything to do with who God is. So I don;t care what it is you have been believing God for you better be expecting it to happen. Because God is not a respect a person, if He made it happen for me, it will definetly make it happen for you. Just trust God, don't give up on God because He hasn't gave up on you and know that our God is more than able to do exceedingly and abundantly above all we can ask or think. Now write your vision and make it plain, so he that read it may run with it and though it tarries, wait for it, for in due season it shall come to pass and that is what thus sayeth the Lord!!!!!!
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